Friday, February 20, 2009

Smoking your Life Away

Originally uploaded by Max Loxton.
Today I was free, at least for the time being, after so many weeks of tired schedule..
The best thing one can do when free is to remember the past, look at your present and plan your future... listening to some soul refreshing soft music, i wandered here and there in my thoughts.. my mind trying to remember a short story I read around 11 years back of a guy who used to follow his mind.. his thoughts.. where it wanders and where not.. and he penned all this.
Someday I think I would be able to write something again, but then I fear that I will confess, of a lot of things from my past, some names that I don't wanna reveal, some stories I would not like to share.. some impressions which would like not to be reflected.. and some failures which no body like to stand with.

Isn't it better to smoke the memories away from your life..
isn't it better to leave your past and start a new life..

My mind wanders here and there, and i scroll from one chapter to another, from a day to another until my mind is more tired than my body and i have to leave.. Leave for another tiring day ahead, for the hope of something hopeful.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

I am alive

though medical science has not been able to cure this disease as yet.. no medicine, no pyschological treatment, no therapy..has cured it..

But its inside you, which motivates you to shoot, Writers block, as they call it for writers but what is the name you can give to the photographers, who despite their best efforts fail to shoot.

FINALLY, my blank and the BLOCK period is over, the bad patch has finally ended, I picked up my camera today finally and am glad.

Today was a great day; a great photo walk and one of my fav image of Badshahi Masjid from today's visit.

I wish all my friends a very happy Chirstmas and a very happy New Year

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Pakistan - The Coffee table book

The Ministry of Foreign Affairs, Govt of Pakistan has just published a coffee table pictorial book containing more than 250 pages book on 'Pakistan'. I am honored to have 12 photos in the book.

For the information of people, the second edition of book is in process which will be sold to the public. The first edition was only restricted to Delagations and Government guests and was distributed among very few people. I also have got only one copy as yet and am waiting for more to buy.

Monday, September 08, 2008

"Winning is not everything but the effort to win is"

Sometime back more precisely some 5 years back; I asked some one who was at his life's prime 'Do you feel you are successful?'

He said, 'No body can answer that; if you think that by having a Saloon car, a 200k pay, a kanal house and a happy family is the definition of leading a successful life then I am successful but if you ask me in real terms then I am NOT'. he said further, 'Success is not all about winning it is about the effort you constantly do to strive your self. Work smart and have faith in Allah and leave the rest, you will be successful'.

I don't know why these lines are comng in my mind again and again but today after spending an agonizing and painful perioid of more than six months, I am back into my life. I can't put my pain in words but those who know what happened with me in the last six months can well imagine the trauma I was passing through. For the last six months only one thing was keeping me alive and that was belief - my Belief on Allah and belief of my close ones on me; and yes today I am back.

Like all the other dark periods of my life, this was the worst but as everybody says, 'After every dark night there is a morning'. Yes, today is the morning and I am embarrasing it with pride, a sense of dignity that yes I faced all with the determination and the faith that I had.

I guess it is the start of another life for once again and I have been waiting to start it since long. I thank my all those well wishers who stood with me in this difficult time and gave me the strength to face everything. And yes Now am ready to face everything that comes my WAY.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Why me!!

Finally I am back on my blog after such a long time when I am a little down, a little frustrated and a little directionless. I dare to ask this time Why me always a person to face all such problems, why me always have been a victim of destiny and why me always have to break the shackles to make my own way.

Why we always forget that sometimes during making our own ways, we tend to stop other ways. Why at sometimes in our lives, we become so self centred and selfish that we tend to mess with others happiness and make ways towards our own self-centred freedom? Why we can't let other live and leave them?

Will things be better someday, That is the real question?

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The Road Not Taken

Uch Sharif
Originally uploaded by maxloxton (A new start .... ).
Today's Thought:

We all take such directions in our lives which are meaningless and of course directionless. But only few are successful. Our lives are like that, meaningless, directionless and we have to choose the right direction in one way or the other.

That is why Robert Frost rightly said,

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Friday, February 22, 2008

The Hovering Pigeons of Wazir Khan

Originally uploaded by maxloxton (Back to Life).
February 10, 2006

Finally I wanted to have a DSLR. A friend and a fellow photographer wanted to sell his Canon 10D, he gave his for a day to test. I grabbed the oppurtunity to shoot some action shoots of flying pigeons and went to my fav place Masjid Wazir Khan.

It was early saturady morning and my boss was happy enough to give me a couple of hours relaxation for the office timings. I again sat on this beautiful sunny morning in the Wazir Khan Masjid to capture the action of pigeons.

It gave me satisfaction and the power in my hand to go ahead and gave vent to my desire to grab a DSLR as soon as possible

Experiencing the Street Photography

Originally uploaded by maxloxton (Back to Life).
Two Year Back...Year 2006, January 15th.

I never had the idea that what this cybershoot and my digital experience would bring me. This 2.1 Mp camera that I bought sometime back has been clinging with me for sometime. I planned out to venture the Masjid Wazir Khan on sunday noon and reached the Masjid Wazir Khan, sitting there silenty observing the pigeons hovering over the age old beautiful architectural wonder by the Mughals.

The pigeons have always been my centre of attraction as you see them closely silenty doing thier day job in carefree manner. The sky was overcasted and hence was enjoying the winter breeze as well the cold wind blowing through the Masjid. Like me very few other people could be seen in the Masjid, some children playing nearby caught my attention.

I have never been fond of taking photos of children as this is not my ultimate subject or to be very honest have never shot them. The two beautiful girls caught my attention, watching me from a distance wat I have been doing. I asked her timidly to sit nearby one of the gates of the Wazir Khan Masjid and there she sat and I clicked.

Keeping in view the very fact that they were my first ever interactions with the street photography and people, I liked the results and the candid expressions. This opened a whole new door for me to venture into the photography more seriously in the time to come.